I'm really getting used to this teaching thing. There has yet to be a morning where I have thought, "I just don't want to go to school today!" Which I think is a very good sign. I have a feeling of
affirmation that this is exactly what God wants me to be doing. And let me tell you, it is an
awesome feeling. No matter how busy I am with school and coaching, and how much time I
don't get to spend with my friends and family, I still find comfort in the fact that I'm doing what God has intended for me to do.
I had a great week of school! I taught quite a few lessons this week so the students are used to me when I take over the class on Monday! A lot of the lessons went really well, and then there were some that didn't go as well. According to the teaching standards, "The competent teacher knows techniques for modifying instructional methods, materials, and the environment to facilitate learning for students with disabilities and/or diverse learning characteristics" (6E). In a special education environment, I have to constantly be thinking of ways to modify lessons or worksheets for my students. I always have to have my students in mind, and I have to know each of their capabilities.
While looking back on the lessons that didn't go well, I realized that it was because one or two of the students were having behaviors during the lesson. Like I've said before, sometimes you can prevent a behavior, but other times you can't. Since I am teaching three or four other students, I cannot really stop what I am doing to help that student so the aides really help a lot when the students have a behavior. At the beginning, it was hard for me to stay focused on what I was teaching while a behavior was going on, but what I have figured out is that if I do my best to stay focused, there is a better chance that the other students will stay focused as well. When a student won't stop yelling or swearing, staying focused is not the easiest thing to do, for me or the other students. Like I said last week, my students set each other off so if one is acting up, chances are another student will too. That is why it is important for me to stay focused on the lesson, in hopes that my students will do the same.
On Friday, my cooperating teacher had to leave around lunch time. That meant that I was the only teacher for the second half of the day. I have taught many lessons in the past three weeks, but Ms. Kelly was always in the room or at least down the hall. This was the first time I was alone with the students and aides. I was a little bit nervous about whether or not the students would act up, but for the most part I felt pretty confident. When I was teaching science, one of my students that has echolalia, was repeating every single word I said. At first I was very distracted by it, but I got used to it. He was actually doing his work (which doesn't always happen) so I was thinking, "Hey, I'll deal with the repeating, at least he's doing his work!" I've learned that especially in this type of environment, you really have to celebrate each success, even if it is very small.
Starting this week, I am completely taking over the class for two weeks. I am really excited, and honestly, I thought I would be a lot more nervous. (Hopefully that doesn't change.) What I really need to focus on in these next two weeks is
controlling the things that can be controlled, and appropriately handling the things that go wrong. If I am able to do this, I think it will really help things go smoothly.